There is such a fine line between depression and apathy.
Jesus, I’ve been trying so hard to look like You, that I almost missed the worst of what I put You through. You didn’t die for sins, You died covered in them. A prideful, lying, thief gasping out my final breath. For that one moment, You looked just like me.
This is my statement of faith from a theological standpoint.
I remember posting a while ago about why I believe what I believe because of certain experiences I’ve had and certain tragedies I’ve endured over the years, but I’ve never really explained my theology, so here it is.
I am a “Reformed Protestant 5-Point Calvinist”. Meaning, I believe in the 5 Solas, which were brought about as a result of the Protestant Reformation. Christians never called themselves Christians originally, they were called Christians as a derogatory term by the people persecuting them as early as 50 AD. We were originally all part of the Catholic religion. Catholic literally means the universal church that started when Jesus sent out His disciples to spread the Gospel (or good news). Over time the church became corrupt and stopped valuing Scripture and began creating their own traditions to fit their agenda and to justify their sin. Then a few men (John Calvin, Martin Luther, St. Augustine, etc.) stood up and started to reconstruct the church to the way it was supposed to be according to Scripture. The 5 Solas are as follows: Sola Gratia, Sola Fide, Solus Christus, Sola Scriptura, and Soli Deo Gloria. It means: By grace alone, through faith alone, in Christ alone, by Scripture alone, and to God alone be the glory. The Protestant Reformation was founded on those 5 principles. Now, the 5 Solas aren’t what the number “5” refers to when I say that I am a 5-Point Calvinist. The 5 Solas just define the “reformed” part. Protestant is what the other “denomination”, I guess you would say, was called that split off from the mainstream Catholic church. Being a 5-Point Calvinist is believing in these 5 doctrines that John Calvin found to be what the Bible is trying to teach us about grace. It’s fairly complicated, and I have just recently started studying it, but I will do my best to explain it. However, don’t take my word as the absolute truth for any of this, because I’m still learning as well. The first point is “total depravity” which means that all of mankind is born into the world as a slave to sin and we are not, by nature, inclined to love God with all of our heart, soul, mind, or strength, but rather to fulfill our own desires. We are not able to do good by our own power, it is all by God’s grace that we are even alive. Because of our sin, which is literally rebellion against God, we are worthy of death. The second point is “unconditional election” which means that God already knows who is going to choose to follow Him with their whole heart and surrender their sinful nature to take on the perfect, sinless life of Christ. Now, just because I know that this is true, doesn’t mean I know who is and isn’t going to follow Him, I just simply acknowledge God’s infinite knowledge and worship Him because of it. The third point is “limited atonement” which means that when Jesus died, He did not cover all the sins of mankind, but only those who will choose to accept the gift of salvation. The fourth point is “irresistible grace” means that even if someone doesn’t seem to want to follow Christ and forsake their sinful nature, they may eventually be beckoned to salvation if they are one of those whom God knows is going to follow Him. The final point is “perseverance of the saints” which basically means that you can’t lose your salvation. If somebody who claims to be a Christian falls away and seems to no longer be a Christian, then they will either come back to the faith because it’s what they know to be true, or they never had true faith from the beginning.